Day 1 / Good Morning, Sunshine

Last night, I took a Benadryl before bed, which generally I hate doing. But the weekend was full of allergens, and I was having trouble getting to sleep. Anyway, I felt certain that the Adderall would pick me right up this morning. I had a little trouble getting out of bed, but I took the Adderall and made my way to the Subway. Upon discovering that my stop was once again out of service, I bought a Carmel Latte the size of my head and headed down to Bergen St. to catch the 2,3...which was going to extend my commute by at least 20min. Annoying. But I felt cheerful nonetheless.

I ran into Bryan on the platform, who had left ten minutes before I did, and we started chatting about the morning, the kitten (who has a cold- sad!) and our impending commute. He asked how I was feeling, this being Day 1. "I don't feel anything yet," I said, gulping my late through a straw.

"I'd like for you to take vitamins if you're going to do this," he asked. He's being more than understanding, although I can't really accurately gauge his true feelings. He's really good at letting me do what I want, even when what I want is crazy. I think that maybe, like me, he's hoping it'll make me happy. Or that it'll fail miserably like all bad experiments and that in a few weeks we'll all be back to normal and I'll have forgotten about the whole thing. Either way, I appreciate the space to make a mess of myself on my own. He'd be a good groupie if I ever became famous.

Regardless, I assured him that the point was not to STOP eating. It was to eat less, and smarter. Without the unreasonable urges to eat everything in front of me, plus some, I feel confident that I'll be able to make wiser, more reasonable food decisions.

"I'm not going to stop eating," I said. He looked at me with some skepticism, and restated- "I want you to take vitamins." Not too much to ask.

So today I will buy some vitamins, and tomorrow I will pop them along with my daily dose of speed.

I feel all right, so far. It's 11:30am, and all I've consumed this morning is that gallon of Latte, which was probably a bad choice from a caffeine standpoint. I don't need a faster heart-rate than I'm already working with. Perhaps I'll switch to decaf. I've been taking really deep breaths, which you tend to do when you're all hopped up. But otherwise I feel really clear, and not at all hungry. I've gotten a lot of work done so far this morning, and I don't at all feel like ripping someones head off. A happy side-effect. I brought some yogurt for lunch, and I think I'll have that soon. I'm going to load up on veggies and fruit- try to cut out meats and fats. Also- this stuff gives me serious dry mouth so another pleasant side-effect is going to be tons of water. Good for me!

So far, day 1 is going well. Provided I don't wind up with Parkinson's disease this afternoon, I will continue my experiment tomorrow!